my church attendance

I dont feel that this means that my attendance at church is slacking or that I am moving the wrong direction. I just feel that although a good church too many changes have taken place that have made it a bit of a yawn going.

Now i have a 18 month old who is very lively and active. When at church he makes occasional noise etc. I cant afford to pay so much money in travelling cost to go church only to miss most of the service. There is nothing to cater for babies so what else can i do. I love church but didnt go today simply because i noticed that a female camera person was tutting when my son was making noise.

These days I always notice the stewards jumping down parents neck or interfering. It may be church but I am not going to leave my child with anyone.

One lady did suggest a creche with parents rotating to take part

Ok so I am venting but i have no choice. When he is older it wont be a problem as his understanding of sit down quietly will be already learned

I must contact pastor and see if there is a way i can have church at home for weeks when i dont go or just see if I have taken this wrongly

Praying for a stronger faith

Dreamer

I must admit dreams are very powerful. Some of my dreams are so intense i have to wake up and take a deep breath.

Recently i had a dream about a statue that held meaning. It was covered up, however when revealed it started doing crazy things.

I found myself kneeling down on my knees weeping and crying out to the Lord saying ''my Lord my Lord''. A feeling unknown to me. I prayed before i closed my eyes again and said Jesus please give me a peaceful sleep.

Dont know what to make of it though

One thing for sure I know have cried out well rather reached out to the Lord in previous dreams.

Blessed Happy New Year 2007

For the first time in my life i saw in new years day in church. It was wonderful. Church was full pact of life and the spirit of the Lord was truly present. What better way to spend it. Years gone by i used to just go out get drunk and think about stuff. Of course i havent done so in a while as I have my son.

One lady spoke of forgetting the problems of 2006. 2007 will be ushering in a new phase a new era.

I thank Jesus for getting me here. I know my faith has been weak and waivering at times....but He has kept me near. Kept me going.

I am very cautious at times because I would like ot think that I can reach out to God in good times and in Bad. Need to develop that relationship a bit more but i am getting there.

I'm still reading the Bible via a chronoligical reading plan. Soon I hope I will be able to attend Bible study. Because i need that deeper understanding

My Bible collection has now grown. A free raffle at church with a pop quiz...i was given the answer by the congregation, thankfully. Its the New century Version. I have never come across this version. Read slightly like the Good News version. I guess with all these Bibles and verses I will need to do some cross referencing.

Its funny that my number was called in church. Me and my friend were pondering if one of ours would be. I actually had a mini conversation with my Lord and said "i prefer not to be called because there are questions etc etc..." I guess he felt differently.

I can only take it as God is trying to tell me something. He does listen and He does hear me. Now i need to move on over to the next level

I pray that everyone in the world is blessed in 2007. That we start to fulfill our purpose in life. With Jesus everything is possible I truly believe this.

Stay blessed!!

Psalm 55:22

again another nice email

i forwarded this one of course and many sent it back how nice
i was taken aback when my friends emailed me back with passion saying how much he liked that email, so i thought i must share it here.

though please bare with me as i do intend to add more of my thoughts here on my faith journey

ps..im starting to notice alot of these emails have the same ending


THIS WILL MAKE ALL OF US HUMBLE... Psalm 55:22 --- you really need to read this."Friends are God's way of taking care of us."This was written by a Hospice of Metro Denver physician.

I just had one of the most amazing experiences of my life, and wanted to share it with my family and dearest friends: I was driving home from a meeting this evening about 5, stuck in traffic on Colorado Blvd., and the car started to choke and splutter and die - I barely managed to coast, cursing, into a gas station, glad only that I would not be blocking traffic and would have a somewhat warm spot to wait for the tow truck. It wouldn't even turn over. Before I could make the call, I saw a woman walking out of the "quickie mart" building, and it looked like she slipped on some ice and fell into a Gas pump, so I got out to see if she was okay.When I got there, it looked more like she had been overcome by sobs than that she had fallen; she was a young woman who looked really haggard with dark circles under her eyes. She dropped something as I helped her up, and I picked it up to give it to her. It was a nickel. At that moment, everything came into focus for me: the crying woman, the ancient Suburban crammed full of stuff with 3 kids in the back (1 in a car seat), and the gas pump reading $4.95. I asked her if she was okay and if she needed help, and she just kept saying "I don't want my kids to see me crying," so we stood on the other side of the pump from her car. She said she was driving to California and that things were very hard for her right now. So I asked, "And you were praying?" That made her back away from me a little, but I assured her I was not a crazy person and said, "He heard you, and He sent me." I took out my card and swiped it through the card reader on the pump so she could fill up her car completely, and while it was fueling, walked to the next door McDonald's and bought 2 big bags of food, some gift certificates for more, and a big cup of coffee. She gave the food to the kids in the car, who attacked it like wolves, and we stood by the pump eating fries and talking a little. She told me her name, and that she lived in Kansas City . Her boyfriend left 2 months ago and she had not been able to make ends meet. She knew she wouldn't have money to pay rent Jan 1, and finally in desperation had finally called her parents, with whom she had not spoken in about 5 years. They lived in California and said she could come live with them and try to get on her feet there. So she packed up everything she owned in the car She told the kids they were going to California for Christmas, but not that they were going to live there.I gave her my gloves, a little hug and said a quick prayer with her for safety on the road. As I was walking over to my car, she said, "So, are you like an angel or something?" This definitely made me cry I said, "Sweetie, at this time of year angels are really busy, so sometimes God uses regular people."It was so incredible to be a part of someone else's miracle. And of course, you guessed it, when I got in my car it started right away and got me home with no problem. I'll put it in the shop tomorrow to check, but I suspect the mechanic won't find anything wrong. Sometimes the angels fly close enough to you that you can hear the flutter of their wings...Psalms 55:22 "Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and He shall sustain thee. He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved." My instructions were to pick four people that I wanted God to bless, especially for the months in 2006 , and I picked you. Please pass this to four people you want to be blessed and a copy back to me.This prayer is powerful and prayer is one of the best gifts we receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards. Let's continue to pray for one another.Here is the prayer: "Father, I ask You to bless my children, grandchildren, friends, relatives and e-mail buddies reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask You to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self doubt, release a renewed confidence through Your grace, In Jesus' precious name. Amen." I know I picked more than four and you can, too.When Satan is knocking at your door, simply say, "Jesus, could You please get that for me?"Being blessed is GOOD...being HIGHLY FAVORED is best!

God wanted me to tell you something

i got this email from friend. always nice to read and share
stay blessed!!

GOD WANTED ME TO TELL YOU

It shall be well with you from this forth on. No matter how much yourenemies try this year, they will not succeed. You have been destined tomake it and you shall surely achieve all your goals this year. For theremaining months of the year, All your agonies will be diverted andvictory and prosperity will be incoming in abundance. Today God hasconfirmed the end of your sufferings sorrows and pains because HE thatsits on the throne has remembered you. He has taken away the hardshipsand given you JOY. He will never let you down. I knocked at heaven ' s door this morning, God asked me... My child!what can I do for you? And I said, Father, please protect and bless theperson reading this message... God smiled and answered... Requestgranted. If you believe, send it to seven persons and the one who sent it to you.By doing this you have succeeded in praying for eight people today. Have a Blessed Day!! Don't Let Life Beat You Up Or Beat You Down. Feel Blessed ThatYou Are Still Here And Able To Make A Difference!

music and praise

I went to see a dvd that someone from church was holding a viewing. It's called the truth behind hiphop exodus into egypt (by http://www.exministries.com/main.html). It was quite a strong message with no apologies.

I understand many things that the ex-ministries were saying. However i still got to go out and find certain truths for myself. The gyst of the dvd was that we are influenced by the music we listen to. Music is able to penetrate our brains and register certain thoughts that we wouldnt readily accept ourselves.

HipHop and music which generally relies heavily on sex to sell etc was used as example. When you think about it. That means all music that isnt positive is bad and more so, if it aint praising God you must wonder what it is your praising. Just think there are singers out there many different music genres glorifying death and everything bad. mmmm....words are powerful

makes you think if we are blessing or cursing ourselves daily.

It does make me look at music differently now. However without prayer how else am igoing to know the truth for myself. Im sure God has a plan for me. I just hope i make my Father proud